i am sleep deprived

ok so i know it's nothing new, but it's getting worse people!

i remember when i was in miri and that man u-know-who told me that he used to lose a lot of quality sleep when he was doing what i'm currently doing. he said that he'd wake up and think about what's gonna happen tomorrow at work, think about questions, issues, cases and such. i snorted and said "yeah, i'm not gonna turn into THAT." he smirked and replied "u are, soon."

i really think that he had put a spell on me, some native witchcraft.

my hair is super long now it's wayyyy out of my control. it's damaged and very very dry. i look like a mental case on the loose. i'm such a lazy bum bum, i cannot and should not grow long hair! i'm even lazy to brush my hair. how's that for u? should cut it but im too yes that word again y'alls - lazy.

oh did i tell u that i sent bibik for service and she came back with a cracked window screen, a large scratch on back bumper and a dent on the right passenger door? sure enough, no one's gonna admit to that!

how am i feeling now: very very tired. drained out. F.A.T.I.G.U.E. and sedikit takut cuz this is a budget hotel where the doorlock isn't the safest on the planet and i can hear coughs, laughs, chats, humms etc from the doorway. no, no, this isn't the kind of inn where u can document paranormal activities. it's actually quite nice. but kinda pricey for a budget inn tho. (but i must say, it's goosebump-ing to have to stay here alone!!).

u know, it's not really about the job and the travelling - it's the worry and the expectation i put on myself. self-help books don't do good to me. i need something else.

what if i botakkan my head eh? that should be cool.

ok i should stop now. this entry is seeming a little too random tonite.