an old letter

I mean email. There was an email I wrote, about 3 years ago, almost randomly (but not quite) to my Dean of Academic Affairs (who I then had a slight crush on). He had white white hair, white beard, white mustache and a belly, and the kindest smile you ever saw.

I don't remember how the letter went completely (I can't find it in my inbox, sadly) but it was basically just me just going crazy and asking stuff like, "will life ever get better? can you only have either a good career, or a happy family? or do some people always get neither?" and I ended the letter with "is it truly possible to EVER be happy? " and my rationalization was that he was an old man so he's probably seen it all and probably had something profound and wise to say. My letter probably reached a good 5 paragraphs. I think his reply was:

Dear Khayriyyah,

Of course it will. Come see me.

I think right now, I'm in need on another dose of reassurance. But right now in my head, alarm bells are ringing and telling me, there's no such thing as greener grass.