I'm this ridiculous person who's a bit of a sadomasochist, and not just in the physical sense.
A friend of mine who keeps pictures of her boyfriend's ex might sympathize.
Every now and then when I'm reminded that she once existed in my man's life, I like to go and 'check up on her' just to find out if she's moved on or not.
Originally, it was just the freaky creepy little lady in me that wants to know if I should be on guard, kind of intelligence (or lackthereof HAH HAH) surveillance.
But after reading the last post, I don't know, now I just feel bad for her. Certainly I know what it feels like to have loved and lost. And I know girls can hold on for a very very long time.
I know if I ever told her she'd punch me or kill my cat and put it under my bed... but I truly hope she moves on and finds someone else, someone new, and I hope that they both make each other happy.
But he's mine now, please and thanks.
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You know what, lots of girls (and guys) i know keep "an eye" on their loved one's ex-s.
Im not sure what motivates it- sometimes i think its just to reassure themselves that it's truly over between the two and sometimes it's the twisted things where they try and compare themselves to the ex, convince themselves that they are 'better' than the ex. Then try and avoid the same mistakes.
Oddly enough my ears still prick up and listen if i hear something about the current girlfriend of a boy used to fancy. I've moved on, i'm sure, but i still can't stop comparing. I dont hate her, but i could've rocked his world if he'd let me.
By the way, i never imagined you to be the s&m sort *wink*
Yes, yes, yes and YES. I choose all the above.
"convince themselves that they are 'better' than the ex. Then try and avoid the same mistakes."
a friend of mine told me to just take a step back and chant, "I am awesome"
Sometimes I believe it, right now I'm having trouble. But PMS, exams, assignments, less sleep, less food sorta--oh, and him being far far away-- does that.
"I dont hate her, but i could've rocked his world if he'd let me."
*sigh* I guess this is when brave mantras like "It's his loss" doesn't really matter. But trust me, it is.
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